I’m not going to deny that melancholia is coursing through my veins. I had a fitful sleep last night. The twins party, which I attended yesterday, could not distract me from it.

It’s just painful. I’m scared to be depressed, like the last time. To be tortured endlessly by negative thoughts. Eventually you become passive and lose hope. Living like an empty shell, feeling tremendous helplessness, having tearful sleep and shortness of breath.

Anyway, the debit I applied for came yesterday. I’ll register the domain soon enough.

I can’t help but to say this: certain someone, please go. You’ve killed me without knowing it. I deserved it though….

- Logen Lanka